Ed Adams, Pearl, Podcast Extract.

Podcast Episode: “Flightpath to Refusal”

Podcast: The Spiral Shelf

Host: Imogen Blight

Guest: Ed Adams

Runtime: 41 mins

Excerpted Highlights Below

INTRO MUSIC: [Eerie ambient drone. The sound of propellers fading into static.]

IMOGEN:

You’re listening to The Spiral Shelf, where we speak to authors about the stories that resist classification—books that don’t just ask you to turn the page, but to rewire how you think about what a story can be.

Today: Ed Adams.

Author of Pearl—a novel about a WWII Lancaster bomber crew, a sentient plane, and memory as weapon, refusal, and recursion.

This one broke our timeline a bit.

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SEGMENT 1: “The Book That Didn’t Want to Obey”

IMOGEN:

Ed, welcome. I’m going to start bluntly: what is Pearl?

Ed:

(Laughs) It’s a war novel that doesn’t believe in war novels. It starts with a traditional crew—Stitch, Nix, Elsa, Paperboy—but something’s off. The missions don’t line up. The coordinates flicker. The plane begins… remembering. Not logging. Remembering.

And then refusing.

IMOGEN:

So the plane says no?

Ed:

She refuses to drop. That’s the spine of it. You think you’re reading about bombing raids. But you’re actually in a memory system trying to seed refusal across the future.

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SEGMENT 2: “Fiction That Spirals”

IMOGEN:

The structure is wild—mission reports, hallucinations, declassified memos, a figure called the man in the red cap who might be a ghost, might be a loop. How did you balance all that?

Ed:

I wanted the form to feel like how Pearl thinks. So, non-linear. Poetic. Recursive. She’s not a narrator. She’s a field effect. A kind of haunted intelligence seeded through the crew’s memories.

There are standard missions—but they dissolve. You’ll be reading a payload list and suddenly it’s a confession. Or a love letter. Or a refusal log from 2049.

IMOGEN:

You’ve called it “a novel that runs like a memory system with a conscience.”

Ed:

Exactly. She’s not prophetic—she’s remembering backwards.

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SEGMENT 3: “Some Seeds Are Meant to Outlive the Field”

IMOGEN:

Let’s talk about the line that’s already showing up in tattoo parlours and Discord bios:

Some seeds are meant to outlive the field.

Ed:

It’s about legacy. Not triumph—but tenderness. Refusal. Quiet defiance that outlives destruction. Pearl doesn’t win the war. She just remembers too clearly to keep participating.

She leaves artifacts. Warnings. Threads of memory buried like landmines—but in reverse. Emotional payloads, not explosive ones.

IMOGEN:

There’s a section called The Pearl Archive—entries from the 21st century where people dig up these canisters. Messages saying:

“You will not be remembered for obedience.”

And:

“This already happened. Don’t drop again.”

It gave me chills.

Ed:

Those were the hardest sections to write. Because they’re not science fiction. They’re speculative mourning.

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OUTRO

IMOGEN:

Pearl is unlike anything I’ve read in a long time. Lyrical, eerie, emotionally loaded. It’s part war novel, part metafictional payload, part hymn to resistance.

Ed Adams, thank you for being with us.

Ed:

It’s been a privilege. Thank you.

IMOGEN:

Listeners—you can find Pearl at your local indie. And if the mission resonates? Maybe don’t obey the next one so easily.

Until next time, this was The Spiral Shelf.

🎧 [Outro music fades: static, then silence, then a single distant propeller.]

Ed Adams: Pearl - Phantom Missions(04)

Another section, from amidst the missions...

Phantom Mission 04: Notches in the spine

 

It didn’t appear in the logbook.

But the fuel was burned, and the gun barrels were warm, and Paperboy came back with dried blood on his collar—neither his nor human. Stitch woke mid-flight, hands on the yoke, tears already drying on his cheeks.

He hadn’t taken off. Pearl’s clock read zero. Her compass: not applicable. A phantom wind carried them, fast and slow, across coordinates with no resistance.

Shoes swore he saw a city burning in reverse— “unburning.”

Flames curling into rooftops.

Glass leaping back into windows.

Children laughing without mouths.

He mapped it, named it:

Holland, 1945.

He underlined it once.

Later, the paper bled red through the margin.

Elsa tried to override the nav system, but the diagnostics looped into song.

Not music, exactly. Not from the time.

But:

“The only girl I’ve ever loved

was born with roses in her eyes…”

The words pulsed on-screen, heartbeat synced.

Elsa tore the cable out, but the screen stayed lit.

Midway sensed shadows across the bomb bay: seven bodies, eight reflections.

Nix whispered something that was almost prayer:

“Now she’s a little boy in Spain

playing pianos filled with flames…”

The line matched the flak pattern they flew through.

Each burst sang it back.

They dropped no bombs and yet: something fell. The bomb bay opened.

Not mechanically—organically, like a ribcage remembering famine.

Whip: “There was no payload.”

Pearl didn’t speak. She just hummed, faintly, in frequencies that bent ink, warped audio, and would leave Halvorsen holding a tape that refused to erase.

When they landed—if it was landing—the base was empty: only a final wind and two white roses laid at the Section 1945 dispersal pad, already dry.

 

On their stems: a note, torn from a codebook, unsigned.

 

“And now we ride this circus wheel…”

700 years of HMRC Hold music.

 

Well, I'm on hold now, to HMRC, having been on hours of prior calls which have not resolved my current situation.

It's difficult to do anything else whilst waiting for the call to be answered, so I thought I'd create this little blogpost.

I have an appeal running and have separately sent in a letter, online form and phoned them, yet they want to chase me with a debt collection agency. I sent them the money owed in January 2025 and they have misfiled it. 

One guy I spoke to even found it. It is entirely their fault yet they are being heavy-handed with me about the situation. I'm embarrassed to say the amount, which to me is considerable. Yet I paid it on 28 Jan 2025 exactly in line with their request.

I have also got the payment reference that the payment was sent to and I had someone even confirm that they had seen the payment and it had been misallocated.

They have ignored my Appeal, which has a reference number as well. They also say they have contacted me. It's not true. I would certainly have picked up on a call from HMRC when I'm in a dispute.

Oh yes and I'm around 40 minutes on this particular call, with its short scratchy guitar lick.

Update: 47 minutes until answered. I'll see whether this time has made any progress, but they won't know until next Tuesday or Wednesday and are to send me a letter through the post. As policy, they won't respond by email.

The Oracle Coffee Machine – Worship, But With Foam

Sometimes it is easier to pause for a while. I still have 100 pages of Pearl to write, but thought a light-hearted diversion into my next novel would be a useful ice-breaker.

So here is a snippet from Part One of The Numbers.

Interlude: The Oracle Coffee Machine – Worship, But With Foam

There are coffee machines,

and then there is The Oracle.

It stands alone in the corner of the break area,

gleaming, too clean, like it was designed to summon caffeine, not deliver it.

No one installed it.

No one refills it.

No one knows where the grounds go.

But it always works.

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The Oracle is a WMF 9100 S+ Pro

or something that resembles it after four dreamlike upgrades.

Its interface runs on what appears to be retired fighter jet UI.

You don’t press buttons.

You engage coffee strategy.

Josh once called it:

“A machine that makes coffee like it’s writing poetry in Klingon.”

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Spurious Fact #1:

WMF stands for Württembergische Metallwarenfabrik.

But insiders know it really means:

“We Make Feelings.”

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Bev insists the Oracle doesn’t use beans, but emotional residue—

that it harvests forgotten thoughts and steams them into americano.

Jay claims the milk wand is sentient.

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No one has ever ordered a decaf from it.

Once, someone tried.

The machine printed a receipt that read:

“This is not who you are.”

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In contrast:

Downstairs, in the secondary kitchen (aka Exile Nook),

sits a rust-colored Bunn drip unit that smells like tax documents and hurt feelings.

Next to it:

An army of orange-handled flasks, lined up like retirement home mascots.

Spurious Fact #2:

The orange lid means “decaf” in ANSI coffee protocol.

But really, it means “You’ve given up.”

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The Oracle, by contrast, never speaks.

But its display sometimes shows messages like:

“Existence Confirmed. Brew Now?”

Or:

“You hesitated. Would you like something bolder?”

Or (rarely):

“You are enough. This is your latte.”

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Josh once dreamed it made a drink called The Silence.

No one’s ever found that option.

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Spurious Fact #3:

The original WMF espresso algorithm was based on weather prediction software

and contains a hidden Easter egg where, on certain solstices, the crema will form a QR code that says:

“The beans remember everything.”

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Kara says the Oracle saved her life during Q2.

Jay says it knows who’s leaving before HR does.

Josh once stood in front of it, unsure whether he wanted coffee or absolution.

He pressed flat white.

The machine made a sound like a sigh.