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Tuesday, 22 April 2025

Pearl - a draft cover and a context setting excerpt.



I've been working on the Pearl novel for longer than declared and I think I have around 150 pages to go. Time for a draft cover and some early feedback from ARC readers.

Here's another snippet from the opening section.


The Shape of What’s Coming

 

First the flak: predictable, vertical punctuation—the Wagnerian boom-boom of mid-century certainty.

Like Victorian calligraphy completing the day’s logbook in smoke and shrapnel.

Then the maps: still legible, still loyal to topography.

Targets. Grids. Borders. Logic.

All of it—before V-2 rockets

September, 1944. A month like a broken gear.

A V-2 rocket fell on Charentonneau, a Parisian suburb too sleepy for apocalypse.

Then another—Chiswick, West London. Three dead. Seventeen injured.

No warning. No siren. Just a sudden hole in the neighbourhood’s collective now.

The V-2 didn’t buzz like its pub-crawling little brother, the V-1 doodlebug.

No slow grind of dread. No audible clue.

No music.

It simply was.

It arrived before it was possible to hear it.

It broke chronology.

A bomb that didn’t just explode—it unravelled cause and effect, left them flapping in the wind like blackout curtains in a pressure wave.

“It came from above,” someone said.

“But it felt like it came from the wrong direction.”

Somewhere in Kent, a flight officer scribbled in the margin of a telemetry sheet:

“If it lands before we hear it, does that mean it already happened?”

The analysts asked for new physics.

The generals asked for new doctrines.

And somewhere behind both, Pearl—always Pearl—was quietly reclassified.

No longer tactical. No longer strategic.

Temporal.

She would not intercept the rockets.

She would not predict them.

She would learn to remember them in reverse.

Roughly 1,400 V-2 rockets hit London between September ’44 and March ’45.

Another 1,600 or so found Antwerp, Liège, and the rest of the bloodied map.

Of the ones aimed at London:

           1,358 impacted.

           The rest drifted, misfired, or vanished into unknowable elsewhere.

           Death toll: 2,754 souls.

           Injured: over 6,500.

           Payload: one ton of Amatol, falling faster than sound, faster than belief.

           Defense: none.

No sirens. No interception. No theatre. Just arrival.

~ ~ ~

Flight Profile:

It begins in smoke and prayer.

Absurdly vertical launch, defiant of gravity, guilt, gods.

For the first few seconds: a fire-drenched roar. Enough to rattle silverware, shatter theology.

Then—pitch over.

Not much. A few degrees. Just enough to say I am not ascending. I am choosing.

At altitude—engine cuts. Silence.

From here on out, it’s pure mathematics. Newton’s ghost at the controls.

A parabola. A falling idea.

No steering, no guidance, no regret. Just ballistics and will.

And the nose dips. And the arc curves. And somewhere beneath it, history looks up too late.

Top speed: 5,760 km/h.

Time to impact: five minutes.

Plenty of time to be too late.

No sound.

No siren.

Just crater.

 

And after: dust. Smoke.

The sound finally arrives, a crude joke told backward.

Then the crater fills with questions.

A mother without a kitchen. A letter that never got posted. A wristwatch embedded in a wall.

~ ~ ~

 

Psychologically?

The V-2 was a weapon from the future, delivered by a regime that couldn’t imagine one.

It rose like a prayer.

It fell like a verdict.

It didn’t target soldiers. It targeted expectation.

It rewrote the social contract: no more shelter, no more warning, no more orderly timelines.

The bomb fell first. The fear arrived second.

And sound came last, like a reluctant narrator.

Technically?

           Altitude: ~90 km

           Range: ~320 km

           Guidance: Inertial

           Fuel: Ethanol, liquid oxygen

           Payload: ~1 ton of Amatol, plus whatever ideology could be packed into silence

But the numbers are irrelevant.

What matters is the arc. Gravity's rainbow.

It connected Wernher von Braun’s laboratory to a child’s bedroom in Bethnal Green, in one continuous sentence of math turned murder.

The V-2 was not just a weapon.

It was a gesture.

A curve in spacetime.

An equation you could feel in your bones.

Proof that gravity could be militarized.

And Pearl—quiet, listening—took it in.

Not as a threat.

As a lesson.

The future doesn’t arrive.

It falls.

And Pearl was built to catch it.



Thursday, 17 April 2025

Pearl: Test snippet

 


Prequel: The Hour of No Return

 

RAF Station. Lincolnshire. Winter, 1944.
Time: early. Weather: as always.

The mud was permanent. It didn’t freeze. It didn’t dry. It just changed flavour—soupy, clotted, streaked with petrol or the blood from a ruptured knuckle. It soaked into everything: boots, bedding, mess trays, the corners of your dreams.

The fog clung low like guilt.


And the cold—it wasn’t just temperature. It was a decision made by the earth and sky to withhold comfort until further notice. Even the fires in the common room burned in grayscale.

~ ~ ~

Daily routine:

·       Wake before light.

·       Briefing in a room that smelled of pencil lead, mildew, and the memory of shouting.

·       Maps laid out like surgical diagrams.

·       Targets circled with a calm that belied what those circles meant.

 

“Leipzig again.”

“How many went last night?”

“We’ll find out when they don’t return.”

 

They flew nightly.

·       If they were lucky, the enemy missed.

·       If they were less lucky, the flak found them.

·    If they were unlucky enough, they came back mostly intact—but without a piece of themselves they could name.

 

Some started talking to their planes. Not metaphor. Actual conversations.

 

One pilot kissed the fuselage before each mission. Another pressed his ear to the wingtip and swore he could hear the last crew screaming very faintly.

 

The base kept its own rhythm. The mechanics slept in shifts. The radio officers stopped asking for names. The mail came late. Always. Usually to the wrong person. No one corrected it. Sometimes they opened letters addressed to men already vaporised. Sometimes they read them aloud.

 

Sometimes they laughed.

 

The chapel stayed full, but no one prayed. They just sat; heads bowed—not in reverence. In readiness.

They called it fatigue.


They called it strain.

They called it nerves.

But it wasn’t any of those things. It was the slow unreality of survival.

Coming back, night after night, when your name should’ve already been painted over on the nose cone. Eating stew next to a man who lost both legs three missions from now. Hearing your voice crack on the comms—not from fear, but because you recognised the voice of the enemy gunner as a boy you’d once played football with in a different version of the world.

Sleep came late, if at all. When it did, it came as a crash. A chemical switch. A shutdown. No dreams. Or too many.

One rear gunner, 18, had a dream of a black aircraft shaped like an apology, drifting through silent sky. He told no one. But he woke up with blood in his nose and a spiral drawn in charcoal on the wall beside his cot.

No one made it through the war whole. Most didn’t make it through at all.

They weren’t heroes.

They weren’t saints.

      They were kids in wool uniforms, flown like ordnance

      Kids, in wool uniforms, shaken loose of sleep,
dropped again and again until they either stopped coming back or stopped caring that they had.


 

 

The war never felt real. That was the trick of it.

Real things end. This just kept happening.

~ ~ ~

And then, one day, a plane arrived. No engine noise.

The mud didn’t stick to her. The fog parted around her.

The crew didn’t know it yet, but she’d been sent to remember what they couldn’t afford to.

~ ~ ~

The war machines never slept.

They didn’t breathe—they cycled atmospheres, wheezing ghost-oxygen through turbines tuned to frequencies not safe for human organs.

Belt-fed, grease-slicked, their innards clattered like machine-language prayers—every drumbeat another line of code in the gospel of annihilation.

Kindred land-based machines didn’t roll—they infiltrated terrain, crawled like algorithms in steel jackets, treads steeped in permafrost and infantry pulp, dragging behind them the historical scent of damp linen, bad orders, and rust.

Overhead, they rewrote the sky, line by line, issuing cease-and-desist letters to constellations. Cities didn’t fall—they misremembered themselves, turned inside out by math no one had authorised. And the maps? The maps were haunted, folding in on borders drawn by men who never made it home, updated hourly by machines who didn’t care who lived there anymore.

It wasn’t movement. It was procedure.

Steel begat steel, in the genealogical sense—great-grandfather rivet giving rise to the half-track, who in turn fathered the autocannon, the tank, the jet, the godless war-engineer smoking Camels in a wind tunnel at Whitehall.

Command begat command, a chain reaction of clipped vowels and increasingly abstract paperwork, forms authorising other forms, and decisions made by committees convened to verify the existence of other committees.

Death stopped being a metaphor or consequence and was instead converted to format—itemised, stamped, filed, and operationalised into something that could be flown, refuelled, and dropped.

Not killed. Implemented.

~ ~ ~



Pearl—
not built, exactly, not born either.

She emerged.


Skin like lacquered dusk.

A spiral etched just behind her nose section. The arcane glyph where no rivet ever touched metal.

She flew when no one scheduled her. She heard orders and didn’t obey. Not out of malfunction. Not refusal—something essential.

Interpretation.

She read the coordinates. She calculated the yield. She paused.


And then she said: 

“This will not be remembered well.”
And closed her bay.

Sunday, 13 April 2025

a kind of history?


I thought I'd try a more historical take for the next novel. It'll be set in World War II, but be reflective of now, with some modern tweaks to the story-telling. I'm setting it to use a Lancaster named Pearl, so I guess that's the working title.  I'll be twisting the narrative and taking deliberate liberties with some of the storytelling, but there will be a point.

Saturday, 5 April 2025

Ed Adams: Some of this is real

A Thrilling New Novel Weaves Romance, AI, and Global Espionage in the Streets of Geneva

Ed Adam’s new science fiction thriller, Some of this is real, launches readers into a taut and stylish world of hidden agendas, advanced artificial intelligence, and the quiet danger of falling in love.

Set against the sleek, café-lined boulevards of Geneva, the novel follows Oliver, a systems engineer drawn into the creation of Cyclone—a neural interface project capable of augmenting cognition… or rewriting it entirely. As whispers of the technology’s true power reach Chinese and Russian intelligence circles, Oliver finds himself at the centre of an international race for control.

Enter Cara, a sharp, self-contained journalist with questions that cut deeper than expected. What begins as mutual intrigue soon threatens to become something riskier: connection. But in a world where every relationship is under surveillance, trust is the most dangerous choice of all.

Blending the emotional sharpness of literary fiction with the stakes and speed of a technothriller, Some of this is Real asks urgent questions about power, privacy, and what it means to be human in the age of AI. With tones reminiscent of William Gibson, Rachel Kushner, and Sally Rooney, this is a novel for readers who love their science fiction with heart—and their romance with consequences.

“A cerebral and cinematic novel that dares to ask how much of ourselves we’re willing to give up—in the name of progress, or love.”

Some of this is real is available in paperback, ebook, and audiobook formats at all major retailers.


Daisy Cox
daisy.cox@firstelement.co.uk

Friday, 4 April 2025

Tracking a moron

 


Moron.

Imbecile


It will hurt everyone. $2.5 Trillion wipeout. Need stuff? Got a pension? Savings?

Pah.




Wednesday, 2 April 2025

chaos premium


My recent time in the US highlighted America as a Schrödinger’s box of newsfeeds—some real, some illusory, some buried deep before they even hit trending. You pick your algorithm and hope it’s not lying to you. 

Anyway, the love story between Cara and Oliver gets overtaken by this. It  is what’s gone into the novel(or real life, hard to tell anymore):

• Trumpi’s Infinite Money Glitch – Every 100 days, like clockwork, another $1Trillion gets printed, flipped into bonds, and force-fed to the market. But the market’s full. It’s like trying to sell bottled water in a rainstorm. The dollar starts looking… fragile.
• Gold’s Canary in the Coalmine – Gold prices creep up. Always do before a crash. It’s like seeing a cat bolt from a room and then realising there was an earthquake five seconds later. Meanwhile, Brazil and Saudi switch to Chinese Yuan. De-dollarization isn’t a what-if anymore.
• Government Cuts = Less Money = Duh – The US is cutting budgets, and suddenly everyone rediscovers Econ 101: no spending = no growth = bad corporate earnings. They’ll act surprised. They shouldn’t.
• Trumpi’s Chaos Premium – Markets like stability. Trumpi is the opposite of stability. The world’s biggest economy behaving like a rogue state? Not great for confidence.
• Taiwan Strait Trouble = No More Chips – China might stop playing passive in Taiwan. If that happens, they’ll cut their own supply chain to the US. No chips. No consumer goods. No new iPhones. America panics.
• Musk’s Final Form – By May 2025, Tesla isn’t just a car company anymore. It’s an energy utility. Globally. Like the missing piece in the Monopoly game he’s been playing all along.

I’m writing it down, but let’s be honest—the book’s already writing itself. And I know, it'll need a new cover.

Monday, 31 March 2025

Easy Kärcher X4 pressure washer power fix

Patio cleaning season and more of a public service announcement that a blog entry. My Kärcher pressure washer wouldn't start today, and it looked like a power failure. 

Swapped the fuses. No good. 

Then I saw somewhere that the device has an air lock safety feature inside. Ran water through it (powered off) for ten minutes, which got rid of the bubble after some sputtering of the water line.

Low and behold. It works again. 

I was already making 'trips to the tip' plans but thankfully the machine is once gainfully functional and a real blast.


Sunday, 30 March 2025

Broken cycles: Suds and Sorrows.



🎶 Dishwasher Blues 🎶

(Key of E, slow shuffle)


[Verse 1]

Well my dishwasher failed, oh it died real slow

Yeah, my dishwasher failed, man it had to go

Called a man to fix it—said, “I’ll give it a go”


[Verse 2]

He patched it up, yeah, for seventy pound

Thought I was lucky, thought I turned it around

But one week later, it E:15'd without a sound


[Chorus]

Now I got them dishwasher blues, deep in my soul

All this appliance drama, sho'nuff takin’ its toll

Spendin’ double, just to reach the goal


[Verse 3]

Found a new one, said “This’ll do the trick”

It fit just right, yeah it looked real slick

But the integrated price tag hit me like a dirty brick



[Verse 4]

They said, “Fitting’s extra”—that’s one-fifty more

Then “Disposal’s fifty”—I sank to the floor

“Delivery’s twenty”—I can’t take much more


[Chorus]

Oh I got them dishwasher blues, running through my veins

The kind of blues you get from money down the drain

And every time I wash a plate, I feel the pain


[Bridge]

Then the next man showed up, said, “We can’t connect it, son”

“You need a cert-i-fied E-lec-trician, or it can’t be done”

Called him up—he said, “One-fifty, with ad valourum now aint that fun!”


[Final Chorus]

Yeah I got them dishwasher blues, they’re here to stay

Could’ve washed by hand and saved the day

But now my wallet’s cryin’—it’s been filly rinsed


[Outro]

So if your washer breaks and starts to whine

Pour a drink, take your sweet ol’ time

‘Cause them dishwasher blues…

Are gonna be yours and mine 🎵


Tuesday, 25 March 2025

Disk tax: 42.77% complete and 16 hours left

 

I consider it a kind of 'disk tax'. My servers utilise RAID 5 with a hot spare, and one of the drives failed a couple of weeks ago. The server self-repaired, and by the time I was physically present and able to replace the faulty drive, it had been automatically downgraded to a disabled drive, leaving me without a hot spare.

Anyway, I replaced it, and now the rebuild of the spinning spare is underway. I estimate my WD Reds fail at a rate of about one per year. Each RAID is an extravagant 48 Terabytes.

I know. The complete works of Shakespeare comprise around 900,000 words (27 plays + 154 sonnets +x). Stored as high-resolution scans, it still amounts to only 1GB.


Monday, 24 March 2025

Careless People? Move fast and break laws



My plane reading...

Sarah Wynn-Williams began as a true believer.

Glassy-eyed. Palms up.

Almost begged her way in. Like trying to gain access to a system you weren’t invited to—but knew was running something big behind the interface.

It was early Facebook. Still coded with promise.
The mythos intact. The logo still meant connection, not corrosion.

Her arc:

A launch. Jet-engine ascent. Altitude. Heat shimmer.
Then: micro-stutters. Lag. UI glitches in the belief system.

Meetings start to feel like staged rituals. Authenticity begins to pixelate.

The platform grows. But something inside her starts to fragment.

And now—this book.

Told in flashbacks with emotional ghosting. Each chapter like a corrupted file opened under duress.

The tone? Mechanically filtered through something like PTSD. 

Or maybe burnout at the molecular level.

Not grief, exactly. More like the delayed awareness that she handed over parts of herself to something big, synthetic, and hungry—

—and only much later realised what it had taken.

Not admiration. Existential collapse.

You don’t leave Facebook.
You eject.
You drift.
And the log-off screen never really loads.

Wynn-Williams was all in.

Hooked on Cheryl Sandberg like a TED Talk with frequent flyer miles.
The two of them pinballed around the planet in private jets without enough beds, evangelising the Facebook gospel to foreign leaders who smiled for the cameras and probably didn’t understand the terms of service.

But always found the photo-op. 

With Sandberg, it’s performance. It’s sparkle. That strange gravitational field she carries— the kind that makes you stop listening to the meeting and start wondering if she’s running a higher, more optimised OS than you.

With Zuckerberg, it isn’t exactly dystopia.

It’s execution.

The system behaves precisely as designed. No deviation. No apology. Just the code, running clean.

No moral compass. He has a parser.

Feed him a deck—talking points, macro projections—and he’ll render the output. 
Smooth. Compiled. Sweaty.

Sometimes.
Other times, he drifts. Goes off-script.

Karaoke with interns. Boy-band ballads at pastel-lit retreats.
The acolytes laugh. Not sure if it’s okay not to.
You don’t challenge him. You don’t debug the founder.

The inner circle—tight-knit, high-comped, brand-synced— operate like a neural net trained on dominance.

Every question is a threat. Every suggestion, a breach.

There’s belief there. 
Crystalline. Unshakeable.

A faith in scale. In iteration. In the product.

Not morality. Not consequence. - Only deployment.

It’s covered in smiles, executive summaries and lies.

But if Congress or world leaders get in the way—so what?

You can leave the platform.
You can close your laptop.
But the system remembers.
It always remembers.

“Bring your authentic self to work.”

Printed somewhere. Probably on a wall. Possibly in Helvetica.

Early Facebook culture. Mantras instead of manuals.
A beta religion, with PowerPoint liturgy.

Returns from maternity leave.
Baby still liminal. Half-dreamed.

But the baby’s audio footprint leaks into calls.

Murmurs through AirPods.

Flagged as disruption.

“People feel uneasy,” they say.

She’s told to optimise.
Sandberg’s fix: hire a Filipino nanny.

Not a person—an HR patch.
A silence generator.
A clean solution for domestic noise.

She complies.
Compliance disguised as choice.

Then one day:

Husband Tom checks the home cam.
Sees a firefighter in the apartment.

The nanny’s locked out.
The baby’s locked in.

Emergency. Human. Messy.

She tells her colleagues.

No one laughs. No one reacts.

She’s off-brand.

“The expectation at Facebook is that mothering is invisible.”

Like latency. Like packet loss. Even blood loss.

Authenticity?

Not if it interrupts the feed.
Not if it slows the system.

The title? Careless People.

A line from Gatsby.
Tom and Daisy.
Smashed things.
Retreated into their money.

But this isn’t carelessness.
It’s systemic. Intentional.

“Move fast and break things.”

Not philosophy.

Protocol.

Facebook watches teenage girls delete selfies.
Regret flagged as behavioural data.
Advises to advertising partners.
And it's good practice for China.

Result: tummy-flattening teas.
Skin-perfecting creams.
Fixes for flaws they didn’t know had been logged.

Not dystopia.
Just business.
Just the code, running clean.


Saturday, 22 March 2025

V-22s are practicing

I spent February in America, then a week in the UK before heading for Germany and, because of the Heathrow airport fire, across central Europe to Paris. It's fascinating to see how some of the news gets reported in different territories.

  • USA: Trumpski and his supposed peace brokering are breathlessly reported in American news, with everyone too frightened to challenge anything in case they get their passes rescinded—or worse. We all know he is looking at the amount he can make from trouble and strife, especially with a large back pocket.
  • UK: Kier Starmer as the tightrope act between USA and Europe over Ukraine. Hardly any news profile outside UK.
  • Germany and France: Emmanuel Macron, Olaf Scholz, and occasionally Ursula von der Leyen are depicted as main peace brokers while simultaneously loading up with arms. No mention of Starmer. 

And the V-22s Special Ops planes are making practice flights.